Rasa useless gila and hopelessssss~ (0)

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Trying doesnt matter when you always fail~ (0)

Tuhan dah tentukan... dan saya hanya penyampai~

I know i fail~
doesnt make me a failure right? Labels:

please do not confuse and cheer~! (0)

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when i miss her~this is the punishment..... (0)

it's hurt to hear that she didnt even support me
i 've always hope she'll understand
not at all eh?
it's hurt
that the tear wont stop
was it because i'm just a terrorist;
trying to escape the norm?
trying to be way different from what she'd always wanted me to be? Labels:

an after thought~ (0)

i am lack in everything,from soft skills to the presentation drawings. in addition, i am too linear,......sometimes....always do things without giving a second thoughts.....i wish  miracle will become my savior.

but at this moment, that is not possible,i have to learn all by myself and switch my own body ,mind and soul~ from linear to lateral....kan?

tx to lion who has made the pic alive~ (: 
i've seen people who has been gifted from God to be an  incredibly good at something, but unfortunately, they didnt make full use of it.sayang.

who am i? no one knows..
 i need time to explore more about myself, fully immerse myself into something, exploiting each and every talent/skills that i possess. Labels:
bila terasa nak jadi kaya
nak jadi elegen
mewah segala macam
tak penah terpikir ke nak jadi miskin?
kaya hati
bahagia iman...~
 wondering...... Labels:

my junior~new life with architecture... (0)

cyfu is quite busy with his works these days~and next week he'll be there,in sarawak to interview my juniors-to-be. haha i hope everything will be just fine,i keep bugging him, "cyfu,nak ikotttt" he'd replied, "ha,jom,kat sarawak" tekezutt.....~i thought the interview will only be held in KL and johor (UTM centre) .
eh,but last year, for my batch, he said,there's no application for sarawak, ....betul ek?

if only i could join him...mesti best tgk budak2 tu........

hahaha,i'll tell those fellows "weyh,why do you want to pursue architecture? it's tough enough that can drive you crazy.... and never step back once you're already in" stern reminder ...hehehehe
betul ke architecture ssh?

fuhh....em....i cannot utter a word about that,but the only way to know is being part of it...yup,your life will be totally different, and you feel like you have the right to declare to the world, "hey,this course takes my life away~!" but somehow, THE BEGINNING OF LIFE IS AT THE END OF YOUR COMFORT ZONE....i learned a lot of things~ not only about design or drawing conventions or the technical aspects of building, there's also arts that made my life so beautiful.... philosophical views~ and so much things.....

cyfu always said this to his students,
 "from the very beginning that i've been teaching architecture,there's always students who will keep asking themselves, why in the first place did they decided to study architecture for 6 years/ currently 5 years...and students regret it... but eventually,you should be grateful,because when you graduate, you'll be a somebdy,a human....."

i am a first year student of architecture~ one year has passed and i change quite a lot... it is not about my madness to the fashion that helps improve my own identity, tapi , mentally, fikrah they are brilliant, which i can see few things that people dont even realised. and pandangan org lain kena respect lah....

tp have to admit here~i hve this penyakit,short term memory prob.....kadang2 bila kalut,semua benda lupa n glabah buat keja.....and the result......sucks lah~!

em........kalau org cakap architecture stakat design merapu and drawings je,mmg salah banyak la......silap sungguh..~kalau stakat tu, buat apa stadi sampai 5, 6 tahun kan....basically,kitorg tak stadi sgt pun,not like the science students lah...with math physics ... macam dah keje,tapi blaja +keje,if kene reject, trima lah,dah buat silap....that's the only way we learn,mistakes will be our teacher~ and lecturer will always be the one who'll guide us and nurture this architect-to-be.....

banyak celoteh kan....
dah la....sampai sini jer...
next post will be a brief intro to this man, Cyfu yang aku slalu sebut.....
 byep~! assalamualaikum readers... Labels:

finalizing the whole semester projects (0)

in short, 3 projects are needed to be prepared for the portfolio. i'm currently focusing on the subjects,building services,titas, enviro physics and few redo for drawings  ... thank god for the communication exercises,we just need to compile the 'hard work' for the semester and not doing the new wet media drawing....


ain presentation

athirah was preparing the drawings..

penat meyh muni? (;

tgk sini la weyh~

keat~~tx slalu beli makanan~!

tx slalu beli makanan jugak......hahahaha

dayah's~and me

sempat lagi main nyer....nak present dah~!

budak architecture mmg serabai




i didnt take my picture~ coz too busy to take others'..
presentation was just fine..,but obviously need to improve alot in design and the panels including cyfu,crit just like usual,kene condemn and so,dah terlalu kebal utk terasa....haha......this is what architecture has made me..~truly invincible Labels:

Trying doesnt matter when u always fail (0)

Cuba utk bertenang
Cuba utk memilih
Cuba utk melupakan
Cuba utk pergi
Cuba utk leraikan
Cuba utk diam
Cuba utk berlari
Cuba utk jauh
Cuba utk berhenti
Cuba utk redha
Cuba utk kembali


There are times we should accept our defeat, giving up whta uve strive foe your life.. It doesnt matter anymore when the world around you change, ...  Labels:

Couple.... Sweet ? (2)

Couple

Aku tgh tak ada perasaan skg nih..not that desperate utk cri org yang bukan2 utk skadr memenuhi tempat kosong... Benda2 nih serius... Aku tak tau camane org buleyh buat maen2... Senang je nak dapat, lepaskan n cari lain... Shok eh tukar2?

Pasal bercinta thing.... Hehhehe well, bad experience really got into me...phobia? I dont think so... Its none of my priority... Not at all.. Ada je kawan aku bercinta, skg... As long as they're happy.... Tapi menjadii org y melihat n org yang mengalami sgt lain.... Jadi org y observe dah la...

Dlu terasa jgk sbb bru kena dump ngan someone yang aku truly love...( ye ek?)  Skali cukup....moving on is not easy... But its part of my struggle to the continuity of  this life... Aku tak desperate nak cari yang lain coz theres no need for that pun...kan dah cakap bukan priority...

I'm looking forward to live this life to the fullest... Making the best out of it... Gila keja, gila research and gila researching about arts kot....pursuing the life with so much fun...the way it suppose to be... Tapi tak lupa jgk pada org yang brada lebeyh bawah... Empati thdap kesusahan diorg.. cita2 aku skg, berjuang utk terus hidup dalam dunia aku aechitectura yang sgt gila susah, and travel, finding the reason for people to move on, supaya hidup aku ada passion dan aku ada hala tuju... Allah pun suruh kita travel, faham ttg ciptaan Dia...i'll travel alot in the future.. Nak tgk how people survive in war, natural disaster, dan poverty....my dream since i was a kid~ sbb waktu kecik rasa lonely, tak taula knp....alone travel? Entah.....

Back to the point... Couple eh? Hahaha aku dah penah bercouple skali, thought it'll be a lifetime relationship.... Tak perlu crita terperinci, rupa2 nya Allah ada plan yang lain utk aku...tak dinafikan, part of mylife change bila aku clash, tapi, pretty good for both side what.. Praying the best for him... Cyfu salah sorg individu yang byk bg smgt.., tak penah aku crita pun tapi he read it well...." He never make mistake, His choice is the best, ila! "

Ada sebab aku tak crita kat family ,  sbb yang sgt janggal... Entah.. Bagus jgk.... At least, aku tak buat muka sedeyh depan diorg, boleyh tumpang bahagia bila masuk rumah....

When it comes to love or feeling, i've to say this, i hate it coz it'll drive me crazy... Jadi, enough skali kesilapan, no more... Aku penah membenci diri sendiri, punish myself, mmm, you can never imagine the real change i've made to myself.. Not proper to tell here..tgk aku skg, and you'll know how different it is..

Banyak aku tgk kisah cinta, bercinta dari sekolah, matrik atau univ.... Ataupun atas dasar agama.... Tapi seriusly tak bleyh nak simpulkan apa2 pun pasl men women relationship...unexpected....jangansalahkan tuhan bila tak bersama, ada yang lebeyh baik menanti...

Ataupun, berpisah lebeyh baik...
Somewhere aku terbaca,
Never ask why why why.... Bila Allah dah put fullstop, kenapa perlu persoalkan lagi and letak question mark.... This is for myself jgk... Reminder...there's always reason for everything...

Jadi kesimpulannya..... Em....nak nikah, nak becinta, it's about mutual understanding, being able to compromise on every little thing atau habits seseorg... Trusting Allah and your spouse, partner.... Accepting, sometimes exprssion of feeling is a must.... Aku tak tau sgt ah..... Ni pandangan aku yang hanay berumur 20 tahun stlah long period observation been done.... Hehehe

Bye readers!!!! Love. Deaella...... Labels:

kaylah~! (2)

tadi baca entry kak dayah,and kak nolin suka baca pengalaman ttg keja kak dayah...hmmm aku nka cita kat sini tak reti la pulak....pasal architecture???? aish....banyak cerita........
buleyh2........sakit hati banyak sbb blajaq lah....mana ada guna buku.....tapi byk medium lain.....buleyh jadi gila sbb tak banyak ilmu construction n pendedahan yang kurang dalam design...

GOod Luck final projek n presentation...and lastly...PORTFOLIO...harap2 tidak di hentam mcm senior...(tapi rasanya tak sbb budak freshie.....mesti kesian skit punyerr...hehehe) Labels:

Sekarang rasa sgt teruji~ (0)

Sgt teruji.... Lebeyh dari ujian kehilangan kekasih hati...ujian untuk hidup, terus faham ttg life....... Sgt teruji.... Sgt teruji.... Sgt teruji.......aku tak mampu menyusun kata, bercerita, sbb no one will understand, kecuali aku dan kawan2 seperjuangan... Labels:
Ya Allah
Berkati tiap jiwa yang mencariMu~ Labels:

Please, ila~ (0)

Believe and trust yourself
Stay calm, it shows that you are trusting Allah
Change, and behave
Please, forgive yourself, ila~
Oh my God~€ Labels:

heyp~! (0)

i love this background pic~ hmm....cutest mascot ever~!

inspired by muslimah

em....i wish you'll be mine, Garfield~!

kena panggil diri sendiri sayang,utk bangun suboh...~ hmmm =_='' ila,ila.........
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Temptation (0)

I break the rule
I break the law
Pushing every limit
Moving against the unruly waves
Withstanding the blizzard
I close my eyes
Waiting upon the wishing stars
It didnt come
I'll wait;
Or
Should i head back home?
someone's waiting,
mybe...
but The trail has lost
Hmm...... Labels:

today a year ago~ (0)

should i say,i hate my own birthday? 31st march and april fool...april for a fool = me
hehe
let's change the date eh?
 LEGEND pre-grad ! love love love
the night of this beautiful lady's birthday too...

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