thinking of doing something~ (5)

owh~
my blog seems to be so dimmed with some emotional issues...~ just look at the background ...... ohooo .... i hate myself because i have abandoned my happiness just for a piece of life's tribulations.
should i change the layout and  the black background *full of darkness feeling* ? guess so.
start fresh,creating new dreams and get your head out of the labyrinthS~!
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i got home yesterday  after 10 hours trip. johor to terengganu. home is paradise, i felt secured and i wanted to be here much longer,more than just a week. but i have to wait, just a little bit longer. the 4 months sem break awaits~!

i can't afford to pay for the airplane if i tried to make it short. hmm -_- i was a student, remember that, ila.

today, i had nothing to do, though i suppose to tidy and clean up my room. our family has been given notice to leave PERUMAHAN KASTAM *valid till end of june* - and soon after that,krekkrekkrek-you are expelled~!, abah should find some place to live for another year before heading back to penang. i'm going to miss kuala terengganu for its precious and unforgettable memories !

i'll cry, maybe?  hahaha big girl dont cry? peduli lah.. not yet BIG, tapi GIANT ((:
sebab besar you ran back here? hehehe......simple alasan is to get the injection for umrah. no available stock at johor, of course abah and i have searched for it but none of them had any. alasan kecik, is i am HOMESICK! salah ker salah ker???  tak tak... ((; mama, i'll be nice....
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there are tones of news i've missed, which means i need to catch it up!
who knows even the world war 3 is about to start, and the so called nuclear-countries will have to perk up their already sleepless scientists and engineers to triple the production of civilized armed and weapons....
while the strongman of oil-based-countries will struggle and resist the dethrone of their crown regarding the uprising of most country's patriots...
Or should we celebrated the grand,elegant and exquisite marriage of prince of Great Britain..?
the way one's society perceive their life and respond to the surrounding will have a greater effect on human being....do you believe it?




malas nak leter....tak de org baca...got to go...i'll change the layout next time lah~! hik hik


wah... if forgot to write an entry for cyfu~! next time lah.... Labels: precious heart

Trying doesnt matter when you always fail~ (0)

Tuhan dah tentukan... dan saya hanya penyampai~

I know i fail~
doesnt make me a failure right? Labels: precious heart

an after thought~ (0)

i am lack in everything,from soft skills to the presentation drawings. in addition, i am too linear,......sometimes....always do things without giving a second thoughts.....i wish  miracle will become my savior.

but at this moment, that is not possible,i have to learn all by myself and switch my own body ,mind and soul~ from linear to lateral....kan?

tx to lion who has made the pic alive~ (: 

i've seen people who has been gifted from God to be an  incredibly good at something, but unfortunately, they didnt make full use of it.sayang.

who am i? no one knows..
 i need time to explore more about myself, fully immerse myself into something, exploiting each and every talent/skills that i possess. Labels: precious heart

a chummy talk with kakdayah~ (0)

she posted alot of supportive words to me.tagging me with many new thing to be learnt.knowing i need something to hold~

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tired of thinking yet no decision made~ (0)

rejection hurts
perpetually making the same thing hurts
it's my life i'm dealing with
none of it clarify anything
no option given now
it was given
he made me think~
not twice
the subject never change
he may have his own reason...
don't question it
i am the one here
standing alone to make the decision

seriously

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