counting.tick.tock.the day after tomorrow. (2)

mama and abah
ayyo adik aku ni....pakai tudung tak reti lek lok.tunjuk braces lagi...

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mama and cik


taufiq tido

this is a few pictures from last night's session. sorry, the pics are all taken randomly from my seat. haha when you have a talk like this in YOUR house, it doesn't feel right when you try to move around just to take a shot.

ustaz came to our house because they missed our name on the list for a talk about the journey and the whole flow of UMRAH .

insyaAllah, this friday, we'll be departed from KLIA with CATHAY PACIFIC airline. aha, there's a bit complication about the trip.here's the brief. i'm too lazy to jot it all down. just a few important stuff and i doodled a bit. habits~




wonder why the photos are all in low resolution.? hah. you got me. taken with iPHONE free application lomo. i love to use this one app, it hides the noise of normal photos.~ haha....but still, u cn see it crystal clear. ((:
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and just so you know. (2)

i hate that when i woke up this morning,it was all unreal.
i tried to pursue you, but as always, you'll never had a single glanced at me.
my dream about you didn't change much from reality.
i thought, at least, for some reason, dreaming would be better.

nothing much i guess.
you are pretty awesome, ila.
when you dream,it's a prohecy.
and your instinct is a cue to something; about to come real soon.
it's always right but i hope it isn't so.

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kejadian tanah runtuh tu mmg betul2 mengejutkan.
sebak,semua bercampur baur.
mereka anak2 yatim.
Allah lebeyh sayang.
Al Fatihah.~ Labels:

outing with badi.kakwafa.amin. (2)

ayaq ni serius sedap.honey lemon tea.

carbonara best tapi muak lah.

kretif punya glass.

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kak wafa punya.siap lala yang amat besaq smpai tak lalu nak makan dia

amin yang tak reti dok diam.tapi tetap kiut.

ni abi.hehe

dua beranak.

ha.tgk tu~


masham ja ngan abi tu......awat....~
 ila mana nya...huh....tak dak.....sibok amik gambaq....
tx badi.pegi amik ila dari utm.
penat lelah hg ila tak tau nak balas camana.
dah la ila pokai tadak duit.hg jugak yang belanja makan minum,tiket balek ganu,siap~!

domo arigatou.
kak wafa n amin pom...jadi teman bersembang and main and gado....hehehe (:

moga bahagia hingga ke syurga.
tx atas nasihat,crita tauladan,and tawa.~
love y'all~!

hehehehehe
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unexpected.commute.and.self-recovery. (0)

dalam hidup ni, we cannot depend much on our expectation. expectation mere ruin our efforts. in my life, i was so afraid to dream, and stuck with yesterday, more talk no action, gosh i just hate expectation.


better DO, and then we TALK.

how to nurture this rages, indulges nafsu for a good decision maker?
i'm neither an expertize nor a good person to talk about this psychological thingy, this is based on my own experiences.~ bad and darkest ever.  
people can change you overnight but you, yourself will keep it forever right? 
 
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so why don't we just do something, anything you never thought you'd done before.haha. sounds like i am encouraging you to do crazy stuff.yup..

just in case,you feel like your life sucks, there nothing left to hold on,or the feel : your soul have been taken, this is not an escapism for your real problem but a good remedy . i've done a lot. haha. bocor.

go some place, alone, far from people you've ever known by heart. get to know the place, people and observe a lot~! it will be all right (:
 (DUNIAWI)

ketenangan hati yang paling best : tahajjud, nobody should deny this. u sleep with tears and the tranquility is yours, truly.~ Labels:

baju lama mama.~ (0)

ini baju lama mama.aku tertengok lam almari.terus tanya.

"mama,mama pakai dak lagi?" "tak..." hehehe curik~!

mama cakap sayang nak buang.eh takkan la nak buang. abah yang bagi. so dah berkurun2 dia simpan lam almari tuh.
bila ila pakai mama cakap elok sgt lagi. bagi kat kak wafa pun tak pa.
eh tak bleyh.~ ila chop~!! sori kak wafa.~!

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huyo huyo....bilek sepah.tipu la cakap tak kemas. walaupun aku ni tak berapa nak kemas orgnya. tapi aku kemas jgk. cuma, kdg2 bila kemas tak dan sehari sepah balik.nape entah....

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sgt kuat.kan~ (0)

this kid is something.

i should learn how to be grateful.always~ Labels:

creativity~ (2)

another word for creativity is courage
 - CYFU

as i tried to paint the empty canvas, all those things that came up were not interesting at all. i don't have the talent that makes some people so proud of themselves.i only has a COURAGE left.take it or leave it,ILA. 

 i've had enough with my old self who's always did things halfway.

oh, please don't leave dear courage~!



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.:dengarlah hati:. (2)

didikan sikecil  
perlu ada marah  
perlu dipukul  
perlu selalu diingatkan  
walau akhirnya  

ia,  

sentiasa melakukan kesilapan 
kesakitan dipelajarinya  
sentiasa memperbaharui diri  
untuk hidup sebagai manusia  
membentuk sikecil menjadi manusia 
… 

didikan seorang hamba dari Tuhan 
perlu selalu diuji  
perlu selalu diberi rasa putus asa 
perlu ditarik nikmat selesa  mengapa? 
kerana rasa sakit itu 
mengajar  
memberitahu  
membuka hijab yang sedia tertutup 
erti kepayahan dan tawakkal, syukur 
hanya satu tujuan 
membentuk manusia menjadi hamba 

jika si kecil  tidak pernah letih, 
mengapa kita sentiasa merungut ,penat itu dan ini?

si kecil ni buat aku terfikir~

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masalah sana sini~ (0)

kalau nak cakap pasal msalah , sampai bila2 pon tak selesai.
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 bukan nak cakap pasal masalah pun. :P
enough already. ada sorang sahabat ni cakap,
"haiqal said he enjoyed reading ur blog, tapi, 90% of it sedeyh and only 10 % jeh yg gumbira?" .. i was like....O_O hahahaha
aku seniri pulak yang kena jawab sendiri.
yela,memandangkan aku je yg jiwa agak jiwang and sgt suka menulis bab2 peribadi walau susah kadang2 nak crita,ssh nak ungkap ngan kata2..tulisan je peneman hati..keh3. banyak la peneman.


kalaulah sedeyh2 belaka, apakan daya..tapi bila teringat2 balik, ada betul jgk apa yang dayah cakap. apesal sedeyh ja keja? em......rasa macam kurang syukur dgn hidup yg sangat agak mewah ni,and nikmat Allah yang tak berbelah bagi ni.


ayyo....kena muhasabah balik diri nih.

i'm a thinker,bila something jadi, aku deliberately akan pikir panjang.....gitu,senyap agak panjang....pastu cepat2 tulis dalam notes lam phone. orang maybe takkan faham.dalam senyum pun macam2 yang datang dalam kepala nih...pastu akan try susun kata2 jadi bait2 yang indah..ewah...!
sbb tu org kata jiwang kot.


dulu,masa kat sekolah menengah, banyak gila buku sastera yang aku baca...kalau satu buku tu org lain baca,konfem diorg gtau tak best....tapi aku je kata best.i enjoy malay literature as much as i'd like to know english lit. tapi buku english aku baca macam2,tak la kearah bahasa inggeris lit sgt,byak genre.cth, twilight saga.aku beli empat2 buku sekaligus. kawan aku cakap GILA. apa aku peduli..! hehehe katam abes suma dah. cakap bab2 vampire, memang no satu! tapi jenis2 buku lain pun aku layan gak.asal bukan buku Barney suda......


baca buku tak penah rugi pun,kalau english, nak teror memang kena baca novel panjang berjela.(disamping kamus ditepi) supaya boleyh biasa dgn sentences diorg. kan bahasa asing. lagi satu, nak blaja pronunciation English (britain atau american) yg btol, kena la tgk movie or drama english banyak2 TANPA subtitle...patu volume buat paling tinggi gitu,bleyh DENGAR baik2..(",) kenapa?...ha,time nila nak uji telinga n lidah kita...baru la apa yang kita baca, vocab baru yang kita dapat masa pembacaan, kita tahu mana nak guna, and cara sebut lagu mana......hehe.....skit2...bleyh lerr...


tak kisah la nak amik accent apa, yang penting boleyh la nak cakap dan tulis skit2.asal org paham.mana2 pun boleyh kot? bagi aku la...
tak de la kekok sgt bila nak buat presentation or kalau nak tulis surat...


eh,cakap pasal tulis surat,ha...baru2 ni kawan2 aku ni nak buat la surat,,dalam bahasa melayu.surat tu utk permohonan nak mintak jasa baik Harta Bina,UTM utk bagi pelan site yang kitorang kena buat analysis.dalam utm je pun, sbb tu kena mintak kat situ je.ayat2 diorang,pergh,rasanya hancor la kalau bagi kat cikgu bahasa melayu..serius rindu nak blaja bhasa melayu kot. DAN serius hancur BM kawan2 aku nih...sakit perut gelak tgk intro diorg.em...camana nih~subjek wajib univ,ada dua utk english sepanjang blaja kat U...tapi BM hancus,pa cita nih! hahahahahahahahahahahah

serius budak ARCHI reti buat surat engish je. eh,betul ke? ayyo...tipu ma... Labels:

request granted~ (2)



just look how stupid i was~
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thinking of doing something~ (5)

owh~
my blog seems to be so dimmed with some emotional issues...~ just look at the background ...... ohooo .... i hate myself because i have abandoned my happiness just for a piece of life's tribulations.
should i change the layout and  the black background *full of darkness feeling* ? guess so.
start fresh,creating new dreams and get your head out of the labyrinthS~!
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i got home yesterday  after 10 hours trip. johor to terengganu. home is paradise, i felt secured and i wanted to be here much longer,more than just a week. but i have to wait, just a little bit longer. the 4 months sem break awaits~!

i can't afford to pay for the airplane if i tried to make it short. hmm -_- i was a student, remember that, ila.

today, i had nothing to do, though i suppose to tidy and clean up my room. our family has been given notice to leave PERUMAHAN KASTAM *valid till end of june* - and soon after that,krekkrekkrek-you are expelled~!, abah should find some place to live for another year before heading back to penang. i'm going to miss kuala terengganu for its precious and unforgettable memories !

i'll cry, maybe?  hahaha big girl dont cry? peduli lah.. not yet BIG, tapi GIANT ((:
sebab besar you ran back here? hehehe......simple alasan is to get the injection for umrah. no available stock at johor, of course abah and i have searched for it but none of them had any. alasan kecik, is i am HOMESICK! salah ker salah ker???  tak tak... ((; mama, i'll be nice....
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there are tones of news i've missed, which means i need to catch it up!
who knows even the world war 3 is about to start, and the so called nuclear-countries will have to perk up their already sleepless scientists and engineers to triple the production of civilized armed and weapons....
while the strongman of oil-based-countries will struggle and resist the dethrone of their crown regarding the uprising of most country's patriots...
Or should we celebrated the grand,elegant and exquisite marriage of prince of Great Britain..?
the way one's society perceive their life and respond to the surrounding will have a greater effect on human being....do you believe it?




malas nak leter....tak de org baca...got to go...i'll change the layout next time lah~! hik hik


wah... if forgot to write an entry for cyfu~! next time lah.... Labels: